Have you ever turned on the radio and the song that was playing seemed specifically written for you? From time to time I have experienced this but none as much or as obvious as now. I have been going through some life changes recently, and it seems that each time I get into my car, the song is like a message from Heaven. The lyrics are the answers that I am searching for, so I turn the radio up and listen closely to the message. This is why I love country music.
My dad had died before I was born. My mother, father and two friends were on the side of the road taking a nap in a Mustang in November of 1979. My mom, pregnant with me in the front seat, was sleeping at the time a truck driver asleep at the wheel crashed into the Mustang killing my father instantly. I have always thought of him as my guardian angel, and I know that I have never been alone in this world. My Granny always used to say that she would see my cradle rocking back and forth and I would be looking up smiling and cooing. I would love to say that I have seen his ghost or something of that nature, but I never have. Move forward to 1986 when my Granny, who raised me my first six years of life, passed away. Like my father, I had never seen my Granny’s ghost, felt her or heard her, but I have always known the two of them have always been there.
I remember my Granny telling me before she passed, “Rikki, whenever you miss me just look at the moon, and you will see me there watering my garden.” At six years old I had no idea what she was talking about, but I could see the old lady. Often I would look up to the sky and try as hard as I could to see that old lady watering her garden, but it wasn’t as easy as the night Granny, and I stood outside. Granny was my world. She was the lady who would dance with me in the kitchen, who would make super funny faces, and who taught me to be kind. That is about my only memories of her.
I believe in some of my near death experiences my Dad and Granny were there protecting me and had also kept me from danger on more than one occasion. But for some reason this last couple weeks, they have been closer.
I was in a situation last week that I didn’t want to be. Usually, I pray, but on this day, I felt like I wasn’t heard. I called, “Dad, Granny, I need you!” Within seconds, I felt something brush the back of my arm and a hand wrap into mine as if to hold it. My tears instantly stopped, and I felt a calm come over me. I turned on the car and the answers I was longing for started playing through lyrics in the song on the radio. I changed the song to another, and low and behold, more answers there were and lyrics I needed to hear no matter how many times I changed the song.
This phenomenon happens every time I get into my car now. It hasn’t failed me yet. All the same theme, all the same lyrics, all seem to be pointed straight at me. It has happened occasionally before throughout my life, but not like this. I have had lyrics cut me straight to the core, but typically I am the one finding those songs, not them finding me. A few years ago I was going through a breakup and thought my world was falling apart, but it was Kacey Muskgraves who was my saving grace. With songs titled; “Silver Lining”, “Keep it to Yourself”, and “Follow Your Arrow,” you are bound to find a song that connects. I would put my ear buds in and play them on repeat feeling every single word of the song and applying it to my daily life. In some ways, she helped me grow into the woman I am today. As the lyrics to, “Silver Lining,” go:
If you’re ever gonna find a silver lining
It’s gotta be a cloudy day,
It’s gotta be a cloudy day
If you wanna fill your bottle up with lightning,
You’re gonna have to stand in the rain,
You’re Gonna have to stand in the rain
Lyrics are often healing and give us the answers that we search for. Whatever mood I am in I can find lyrics for how I am feeling. In some ways, I wish I would have listened to them closer when it came to life lessons and love. It might have saved me from a few bad days along with bad apples. But life is a constant lesson and thank God for country music. I know I can get through those hard times.
I can’t say for positive that my Dad and Granny are behind these musical messages, but in my heart, I know it is. I went to Google to check my theory and found that the majority of signs from loved ones do include music. According to Healyourlife.com, “Musical signs can come in the form of a meaningful song in your head or a song on the radio at an opportune time that is very meaningful to you.” That sure makes sense with the last few weeks I have had.
It’s been nice to feel that no matter what I am going through or what is going to happen in my future, that I am not alone. And knowing that if I need some good moral support, all I have to do is turn on Best Country 103. This is why I love country music. Not only has it always been there for me like a good friend, but apparently now it is a way for my loved ones to communicate. Have you ever had a loved one communicate through music to you? If you have, please let me know in the comments, I would love to hear your story!